CV and mad panic behaviour

[Baggers]

Lost count of the number of times when I wondered a fast or a lingering passing would have been better.  40 years later, still no answer [member=61]Baggers[/member] ... but sincere thanks to all of you

Gotta be honest mate, I wonder if any difference matters. We did get to say good-bye but witnessing the horrible decline and wasting of such passionate and beautiful person still haunts me. And even though we knew the end was coming, when it came it was a massive shock and a heart-wrenching loss, a void never to be filled. I felt the same with my dad only 8 months ago. Even though he was a pr1ck in so many ways, love looks beyond behaviour. I apologize for any sorrow indulgence or sanctimoniousness.